June 2010
It'll be okay. I promise we'll make it.
I hope you know you’re not the only one who feels the way you feel. You are not the only one who struggles. You are not the only one with questions. You are not crazy. You deserve to be heard, to be known. You deserve love.
I have been waiting for this. I’ve read this blog time and time and time and time and time again. I know how it goes. I have come close to the point of memorizing it.
This means something different to me every time. Life alone is beautiful. I was finally able to step back today and look at the big picture. I’m sincerely right-brained and focus mainly on events and details. I never get to overlook everything at once.
Let me tell you like it is: I am alive. That, alone, is beautiful.
This bothers me to no end.
I just saw a facebook status that drove me nuts…and I have a very high tolerance for nuts.
________ ___________ ♥6-29-10 ♥ i hav finally found the man of my dreams!! i love you ________!! you are my world!!
You have been dating for a few freaking hours. Yes, while I don’t know what love is, and I’m not one to judge, love does not happen in a few hours. I mean, gosh, really? I don’t care how old you are, who he is, who you are. You are not “in love”.
If there was an easy way out, I would have taken it by now.
I guess I can’t put exactly what I feel into words. I never can. There’s still always something lingering above me. So I’m gonna’ try to put it on paper. This project should take three to four hours if I really want to finish it and do it well. Let’s see.
The only Edward I love has scissors for hands and doesn't sparkle like a homosexual.
Not all gay guys sparkle, but I wasn’t gonna’ compare him to a cheerleader because I actually like some cheerleaders.
Anyway, there is nothing I hate more than stupid fan-girls. Twilight was horribly written, and I never even bothered to read the other three books, let alone finish the first. I read it three weeks after it was first released and hated it then. Edward Cullen, Robert Pattinson, Jacob Black, and Taylor Launtler are not, and I mean absolutely not hot/sexy/dreamy/gorgeous. It kills me to hear girls my age squeal and go on and on and on about any of the actors, the series, or the movies. I might and I mean, just might accept that from a nine-year-old. I feel that girls my age, and yes, even some guys, have forced themselves to like it just because other people do (but that’s just another rant for another time). I get so easily pissed off hearing about it because I hear about it so much. If I see one more Facebook status update saying “OMG SOOO xxCITED~~ SEEING TWILIGHT: ECLIPSE WITH MY BESTIE WHEN IT COMES OUT!” or “Counting down the days til eclipse comes out” or “Oh my gawd, Taylor Launtler<3<3333.”
I WILL EFFING FLIP OUT.
I swear. In short: I hate the Twilight saga and everything to do with it, including the fans. If you read this, I’m sorry for wasting your time, but I needed to get this out.
“It looks like the kid fell out of the ugly tree and hit every branch on the way down!”
—Chucky (in Seed of Chucky)
Mhm.
I hate being told I’m “too young” to do something.
Even worse? I hate being told I’m too short to do something.
I may be 5’1, but I am fifteen and mature beyond my years.
Respect that, please.
Miley Cyrus Fail.
Dear Miley Cyrus,
you are not Rihanna. You’re also not human, as this shows. BE AN ORIGINAL, YOU FREAK. Get some individualism up in here, please.
Anyway, she failed. Can’t Be Tamed ≠ Disturbia.
UGH. Nobody likes you.
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From here, I don't know where to go, but I don't want to lay down just yet.
Life is supposed to be one big journey; an adventure, of sorts.
This isn’t a fork in the road. There’s only curves and hills and beasts along the way that I have to fight to try to make it through.
“No matter how far down the wrong road you go, you can always turn back.” - ?
I’m at a standstill. Not too tired to go on, but I don’t have a destination, so I have no desire to continue forward. At the end, I know what’s there. It’s a cliff. Jump & you’re gone. Dead. I don’t want to rush there. There’s no point in running, seeing as I don’t know exactly how long my road is. For now?
I feel like I’m going nowhere…
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Sixxx.
Oh my gosh. He’s so hot.
I could go on and on and on and on about how hot he is, but I won’t.
o5.
Favorite quote:
“It is no use saying ‘we are doing our best.’ You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary.” - Winston Churchill
